One of the hardest part of my life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder to forget that feeling , 

i'm so tired of getting my heart broken again and again ..

i'm so sorry my beloved if sometime it's hard for me to say 'i love u' back ,

sometime i keep thinking that , 

Will you still love me tommorow? After I tell you what's going in my head, after I finally let myself crack open down a seething crack? Will you understand my pain, my heartache? Will you hold my hand through my nightmares, and run away with me when I can't fight them anymore? Will you hold me as I sob about all the crushed dreams, the stolen opportunities, the never-came-true wishes? Will you tuck me in at night and check my heart for monsters? Will you still love me, a ghost, a shell of a girl, a broken pathetic excuse for a person? Will you?

my heart hurt so much that make me feel so scare that if one day if i love you as much as you love me then you will leave me just like my previous relation :'[